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This message is about an anal orifice. Skip it if you don't want to read it.

A while back I wrote about how I got caught up in a moment and rimmed my wife. Since that happened, I have gone to play with the back door about once out of every two lovemaking sessions. We're back to basically making love only about once a week (that's another post for another day), so that means I've been going to the back door about twice a month. This has never involved my penis; it has mostly been oral and some digital. Usually, it was after she had reached orgasm through cunnilingus, and I would flip her from her back to being face down on her knees. Always, after she would leave the room (orgasms keep her awake, and she has always gone to sleep at a later time than me anyway), I would take the precaution of rinsing with mouthwash.

Sitting here writing about it, it doesn't turn me on. The thought of it has never been a turn-on to me; the hypothetical was always a turn-off, if anything. And yet I was doing it without her asking me to, and I'm trying to figure out why. I think I was turned on by her willingness to let me do it. It was something new, something I had never done before with anyone.

My wife doesn't take much initiative or try to innovate, so it has been up to me to do so. I love her completely, including every inch of her body. I revel in tasting her and pleasuring her with my tongue. So maybe this was an overcompensation for her not doing what I know she can do – swallowing or at least orally capturing my ejaculate.

Anyway, after the first time it happened, she said she was ambivalent about it. It didn't rock her world, but if I wanted to do it, that was enough – although we reminded each other that my penis would not be going there.

But... she has finally decided she's had enough. She said, after she giggled in the middle of everything (and I didn't consider it a good giggle, so I asked what was wrong), she's never liked the way it felt, and the tone of her voice made it clear that there wasn't going to be a "...but if you want to keep doing it, go ahead."

And so that door closes. It's probably for the best. I'd still like to pay a lot of attention to the rest of her tush, however. It's beautiful.

Hmmm. I've never sucked toes. Maybe I'll have to try that.